Well, the energy of the past month has been INTENSE. In good ways and in well, intense ways. From quitting my job to moving across the country to building my own business, there has been a lot going on. I found myself the past two days wanting to do nothing but lay on the couch in front of the TV. Don't get me wrong, sometimes we need times like this, however this was different. I could feel all of my energy draining. All I was craving was sugar and junk. I barely had the motivation to meditate. I'm super grateful that my niece and sister visited yesterday; if they hadn't I probably wouldn't have left the couch. When they left in the early evening, I ended up falling asleep for a couple of hours.
I set the intention last night that I would wake up this morning feeling refreshed, ready to have an inspired and aligned day... yeah, that didn't happen. Again, no energy. Feeling vulnerable, the ego took it's chance to attack.
You're too lazy to really be an entrepreneur.
Everyone else thinks you need a job that is reliable and predictable.
You're doomed to be in lack forever.
DAMN ego! It really knows how to hurt the heart. I knew that this wasn't me. This wasn't love.
I needed a nap.
A long, deep, rainy afternoon nap.
I woke up feeling much clearer. There had been so much going on, I didn't realize how exhausted I had become. The nap was the start of the recalibration process. I woke from my nap and went right to my new zen den to listen to meditate. The meditation was just what I needed. Why was I so resistant to meditating earlier that day and the day before? The resistance was fear trying to convince me that the love I experience in meditation is not real.
The rest of the evening has continued in alignment with more creating and connecting. I felt called to give myself an angel card reading around my physical health as I could feel that my angels had messages for me. I received messages of eating fresh foods, eating consciously and mindfully, and healing my addiction to sugar and junk food. In my Unicorn deck, I was guided to work with Archangel Uriel.
I went right back into meditation to ask for Archangels Uriel's guidance. During my automatic writing, the concept of recalibration came back up. I was guided to ask my angels to recalibrate my taste buds so that savor fresh, healthy flavors. I was guided to ask my angels to recalibrate my cravings so that I only crave foods that are truly good for me and serve my higher purpose. I was guided to ask my angels to recalibrate my limiting belief that food is sometimes the only good part of the day. Recalibrate, recalibrate, recalibrate.
This theme ended up being so strong and prevalent today that I knew I had to write about it. I went to pick back up my journal and ended up grabbing my laptop- so I took it as a sign that it was meant to be a blog.
Each recalibration process looks different. I had about 3 different kinds just today! Honor your own process. Sit in the silence and you will be guided.