Growing up I used to try on a bunch of different personas. I went through phases of wanting to be: skater girl, surfer girl-yup, surfer girl southern Michigan, emo chick, scene queen, punk-ish, goody-goody, hippie, preppy, etc. The list goes on and on. One day I'd be wearing pearls and reading vogue, the next day I'm painting my nails neon pink and asking to go to thrift stores. I had no freakin clue who I was. I felt like I had to choose one of these "characters" and stick with it.
There were things I was always interested in, but again felt like I needed to fit into a mold in order to belong and feel loved. I wanted to wear tye-dye and long flowy skirts- which I kind of started to do in middle school... but I would wear an American Eagle polo with the flowy skirt because I needed that logo to determine part of my worth. I was interested in angels, elements, tarot cards, etc. I was fascinated with mediums and intuitives. The idea of being a free spirit that traveled and created art filled my soul- but I ignored it. That didn't fit with my "go to school, go to college, get a job, get married, buy a home, have kids" plan and definitely didn't fit with my goody-goody, work hard to get the hell out of this town character I felt stuck in. My last couple years of high school I started to branch out. I started to explore this free spirit idea in my head, but it wasn't always in the healthiest of ways.
I got in some trouble. I learned some hard lessons. Those are for another post on another day. Let's fast forward a little bit to where I am now...
I have done two rounds of May Cause Miracles, read countless self-help/spirituality books, had energy healings done and got some coaching. By releasing blocks, doing the shadow-work, connecting to my spirit guides, praying to God, and asking my angels for guidance- I have gotten to a place of confidence and happiness. I feel connected to my truth and who I am. I have learned that truth is not stagnant- I am always evolving and growing, so my truth must too.
I have a daily meditation practice, a growing crystal collection, and 3 decks of angel cards. I use affirmations, prayer, and journaling as tools to keep me in alignment and cope with stressors. I wear what I want to- I do not feel the need to fit one particular style. I will wear my lularoe leggings with my flowy dress and crystal jewelry every damn day if I want to. I wear make-up and do my hair when I feel like it and I don't worry about what others think of me when I am not all done up. I love going to craft fairs, farmer's markets, book shops, and metaphysical stores. I enjoy watching reality television and eating chocolate- things I used to consider guilty pleasures and NO LONGER FEEL GUILTY ABOUT THEM. I love nature, especially any body of water. I love animals, but I don't really want to touch them (unless it is a cute puppy/dog). I am a feminist who strongly believes in equal rights for ALL on ALL levels & platforms. I have a Master's degree in therapy and I want to use that degree to help others, but on a spiritual level and through a soulful perspective.
I am passionate about serving and healing others. I know that my purpose is to love myself unconditionally and to teach others how to do the same. I understand that I have a chronic illness that causes me physical pain so that I can have a deep understanding of the mind-body connection and use that understanding to help others heal. I am creative, compassionate, empathetic, and intelligent. I am a strong, wise, spiritual badass with amazing healing capabilities. I am divinely guided on how to use my gifts & passions to support my purpose and serve others. I am unconditional love. I am my authentic truth.